Friday, February 26, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Gratitude
I know it's been forever and a day since I last posted.
A few weeks back I had written a fabulous super long picture filled post.
I was witty and the words just flowed from my fingertips...
it was the best post of my life.
Then my computer froze, blogger error'ed and i lost the whole entire post.
It was one of those moments where I was like "nooooooooooooo" and I couldn't move my eyeballs from the screen because I couldn't believe what had just happened.
I was too drained from the experience to re-do it all and suddenly my wit and my free flowing fingertips vanished.
But I needed that break.
I needed to clear my head, shake off my fog.
I really want to say thank you for everyone who emailed and gave me comment love.
You guys really made me feel so good and so loved. Thank you!!
Since I last posted I feel so much happier, content, peaceful and full of anticipation.
I know good things are in store for us. I feel it in my heart.
Through this tough year we have grown as a family.
We have learned a lot and have a new appreciation for what we have.
I am truly a blessed girl!
Sophia is growing so fast. She is the most awesome girl.
She is in such a great stage right now.
It's like all of a sudden things are jiving again. Most likely it's because I am in a happier place.
She is talking up a storm. Full sentences. Full of funny.
She sounds like she is from Boston. Hilarious. Her little girl Boston accent is the best.
She is at an age where I can reason with her. I can explain things to her and she totally gets it.
This makes life a whole heck of a lot easier! Less battles, less meltdowns.
The girl loves to be out and about. She is happiest when we have things to do and people to see.
She is social but she is shy. So shy.
She loves to be out with other friends her age but it takes her a while to warm up. She will play by herself and then eventually mingle with her buddies. If it is just her and one other kid she is not shy but in group settings she is. She won't talk much around people she is not familiar with. She does her shy smile and sometimes hides her face with her hands. But as soon as she is alone with me she won't stop talking about them or what she did.
She loves babies. We were able to see both my little nieces in the last month and a half. She talks about them both almost daily and if she see's a baby in real life she goes into this high pitched voice "hi baby" "you want to hold my hand?" So stinkin cute.
The girl is a rockstar about playing hide and seek. She is freakishly good at it for being just two. It is her favorite thing to do. ever. We play it every night before dinner. All three of us play and the laughter involved is awesome.
She is so polite. She is definitely a Canadian! After everything I do I hear a "thank you mom". She says please for everything. Even things she doesn't want. Her most used line is "don't want to please". It's so sweet that she almost gets away with things. almost. The one area we need to work on is saying sorry. She has a major stubborn streak when it comes to that. When she finally says it she will whisper it so you can barely hear her. "Sorry" and then she does her shy smile. We will get there... at least she is now saying it. That took a long time.
I love her with every fiber of my being. It's so cool that she is my little buddy now. We can have talks and conversations and go shopping. We have so much fun together. We both get each others humour. We laugh a lot. Yet even though she is getting to be such a big girl she still needs my snuggles and hugs and kisses.
Speaking of her being "a big girl" (which she now tells me she is 10 times a day) here is a cute story. When my 3 year old nephew Sam came for a visit a few weeks ago he kept saying he was a big boy. The day they left I asked Sophia if she needed help with something and she replied "no i a big boy". So adorable.
I could go on and on.....
Are you still reading? My fingers just seem to keep on typing.
One more thing.
Chris has an interview March 4th for a great job working for Parks Canada.
It is a government job which means many awesome things. Security, benefits, good salary and lots of perks.
He is the perfect candidate for this job. So please pray and think positive vibes that he will be chosen!
The application process started back in October and he has made it through every stage and is now onto the last stage which is an interview and a presentation. It is definitely nerve wracking and we are guessing there are probably about 10 or so other candidates.
I totally know that he is gonna rock it!
I will leave you now with a picture I took today of Sophia.
I totally get a mommy FAIL in the picture taking department. It doesn't help that Sophia hates getting her picture taken. I don't know why? Could it be because I used to take 3 billion of her a day?
Sophia chose her outfit today and she did a mighty fine job. She asked for her "springtime jacket" and her "summer shoes". Made me smile so big. I never called these items that before. She came up with that on her own. I don't think she could be more of a girl if she tried!! Of course she had to have her purse too. She filled it up with ribbons, buttons and her car keys :)
P.S. that is her "say cheese" face. It's a totally phony over done smile. When she does her on demand smile she always winks one eye. I love it.
A few weeks back I had written a fabulous super long picture filled post.
I was witty and the words just flowed from my fingertips...
it was the best post of my life.
Then my computer froze, blogger error'ed and i lost the whole entire post.
It was one of those moments where I was like "nooooooooooooo" and I couldn't move my eyeballs from the screen because I couldn't believe what had just happened.
I was too drained from the experience to re-do it all and suddenly my wit and my free flowing fingertips vanished.
But I needed that break.
I needed to clear my head, shake off my fog.
I really want to say thank you for everyone who emailed and gave me comment love.
You guys really made me feel so good and so loved. Thank you!!
Since I last posted I feel so much happier, content, peaceful and full of anticipation.
I know good things are in store for us. I feel it in my heart.
Through this tough year we have grown as a family.
We have learned a lot and have a new appreciation for what we have.
I am truly a blessed girl!
Sophia is growing so fast. She is the most awesome girl.
She is in such a great stage right now.
It's like all of a sudden things are jiving again. Most likely it's because I am in a happier place.
She is talking up a storm. Full sentences. Full of funny.
She sounds like she is from Boston. Hilarious. Her little girl Boston accent is the best.
She is at an age where I can reason with her. I can explain things to her and she totally gets it.
This makes life a whole heck of a lot easier! Less battles, less meltdowns.
The girl loves to be out and about. She is happiest when we have things to do and people to see.
She is social but she is shy. So shy.
She loves to be out with other friends her age but it takes her a while to warm up. She will play by herself and then eventually mingle with her buddies. If it is just her and one other kid she is not shy but in group settings she is. She won't talk much around people she is not familiar with. She does her shy smile and sometimes hides her face with her hands. But as soon as she is alone with me she won't stop talking about them or what she did.
She loves babies. We were able to see both my little nieces in the last month and a half. She talks about them both almost daily and if she see's a baby in real life she goes into this high pitched voice "hi baby" "you want to hold my hand?" So stinkin cute.
The girl is a rockstar about playing hide and seek. She is freakishly good at it for being just two. It is her favorite thing to do. ever. We play it every night before dinner. All three of us play and the laughter involved is awesome.
She is so polite. She is definitely a Canadian! After everything I do I hear a "thank you mom". She says please for everything. Even things she doesn't want. Her most used line is "don't want to please". It's so sweet that she almost gets away with things. almost. The one area we need to work on is saying sorry. She has a major stubborn streak when it comes to that. When she finally says it she will whisper it so you can barely hear her. "Sorry" and then she does her shy smile. We will get there... at least she is now saying it. That took a long time.
I love her with every fiber of my being. It's so cool that she is my little buddy now. We can have talks and conversations and go shopping. We have so much fun together. We both get each others humour. We laugh a lot. Yet even though she is getting to be such a big girl she still needs my snuggles and hugs and kisses.
Speaking of her being "a big girl" (which she now tells me she is 10 times a day) here is a cute story. When my 3 year old nephew Sam came for a visit a few weeks ago he kept saying he was a big boy. The day they left I asked Sophia if she needed help with something and she replied "no i a big boy". So adorable.
I could go on and on.....
Are you still reading? My fingers just seem to keep on typing.
One more thing.
Chris has an interview March 4th for a great job working for Parks Canada.
It is a government job which means many awesome things. Security, benefits, good salary and lots of perks.
He is the perfect candidate for this job. So please pray and think positive vibes that he will be chosen!
The application process started back in October and he has made it through every stage and is now onto the last stage which is an interview and a presentation. It is definitely nerve wracking and we are guessing there are probably about 10 or so other candidates.
I totally know that he is gonna rock it!
I will leave you now with a picture I took today of Sophia.
I totally get a mommy FAIL in the picture taking department. It doesn't help that Sophia hates getting her picture taken. I don't know why? Could it be because I used to take 3 billion of her a day?
Sophia chose her outfit today and she did a mighty fine job. She asked for her "springtime jacket" and her "summer shoes". Made me smile so big. I never called these items that before. She came up with that on her own. I don't think she could be more of a girl if she tried!! Of course she had to have her purse too. She filled it up with ribbons, buttons and her car keys :)
P.S. that is her "say cheese" face. It's a totally phony over done smile. When she does her on demand smile she always winks one eye. I love it.
Monday, January 18, 2010
The one where I let it all out
A breather
That's what i'm going to take.
I have been feeling overwhelmed lately.
I know I don't normally get into much of my own personal life on this blog.
It's all about my sweet princess.
But i'm going to give you a glimpse of what's going on in our life and perhaps you can understand why I don't blog as much or visit your blogs as much.
First up...
Sophia doesn't nap anymore. ever.
If she did nap it would be late in the afternoon and the girl would not go to bed until LATE.
So I decided no more naps.
Would I rather have my evenings free or 1.5 hours in the afternoon for quiet?
Evenings please. I have shows to watch.
She is totally fine with no nap. Didn't phase her. Me on the other hand? I'm tired.
I miss nap time.
Ok, so that was the easy one to deal with.
The second is that my husband Chris was laid off of work almost 9 months ago.
Totally sucks. He had a good job.
Finding a new job? Near impossible.
He has been doing side jobs (web design etc.) for the meantime.
We have been lucky and that has kept us a float. But it's been tough.
Penny pinching is my least favorite hobby in the world.
I was working part time (20 hours a week) at home while Sophia napped and weekends. Then I left that job and started my own thing working for a local Realtor. December I didn't work for him, but will be starting up again next week (hopefully). The only problem. Sophia doesn't nap anymore. Weekends working to the max here I come.
Really, really, really praying for something solid to come through for Chris. Did I mention it's been very hard? Financially and relationship wise. We are both working from home. Always together. always. Sounds romantic? It's not ;)
Ok and the big kicker is Chris' health.
Some of you might remember me mentioning that Chris had a brain/pituitary tumour? Well he did/does. It will never fully be gone. He has had two surgeries to remove what they could (a craniotomy and one that involves going through his nasal cavities). Pleasant!
He also had radiation last April for five weeks solid.
We just found out that his pituitary is no longer working. Nada, nothing, zip.
Your pituitary gland is responsible for most all of your hormones.
Chris has to go on complete hormone replacement.
He has to wear a medic alert bracelet.
The really bad news is that we most likely won't be able to have any more children.
Gulp. Brace for tears.
There is hope however. We could try different treatments.
But they would all be very costly.
So praying extra super duper hard that we will soon be graced with good news and something to celebrate in our life. (Besides celebrating Sophia, which I do everyday!)
A job that has medical would be ideal. A miracle in that we could still get pregnant (when Chris' is ready of course ;)
So to my family and friends please put on your prayer hats and keep us in your prayers.
I'm feeling a little sad, homesick, lost, confused.
Really feeling the urge to move back home to Vancouver.
I'm not sure if that's my scared self talking.
I want Sophia to be near my parents.
I want to be near my parents.
I want trees and rain.
I want to not be struggling anymore.
I trust in God and I know He will take care of us.
It's in His hands.
I just hope I am listening.
My two peeps on our way to Church.
She is growing like a weed!
(fyi- her hair is not crispy, I just sprayed it down with water to style it)
That's what i'm going to take.
I have been feeling overwhelmed lately.
I know I don't normally get into much of my own personal life on this blog.
It's all about my sweet princess.
But i'm going to give you a glimpse of what's going on in our life and perhaps you can understand why I don't blog as much or visit your blogs as much.
First up...
Sophia doesn't nap anymore. ever.
If she did nap it would be late in the afternoon and the girl would not go to bed until LATE.
So I decided no more naps.
Would I rather have my evenings free or 1.5 hours in the afternoon for quiet?
Evenings please. I have shows to watch.
She is totally fine with no nap. Didn't phase her. Me on the other hand? I'm tired.
I miss nap time.
Ok, so that was the easy one to deal with.
The second is that my husband Chris was laid off of work almost 9 months ago.
Totally sucks. He had a good job.
Finding a new job? Near impossible.
He has been doing side jobs (web design etc.) for the meantime.
We have been lucky and that has kept us a float. But it's been tough.
Penny pinching is my least favorite hobby in the world.
I was working part time (20 hours a week) at home while Sophia napped and weekends. Then I left that job and started my own thing working for a local Realtor. December I didn't work for him, but will be starting up again next week (hopefully). The only problem. Sophia doesn't nap anymore. Weekends working to the max here I come.
Really, really, really praying for something solid to come through for Chris. Did I mention it's been very hard? Financially and relationship wise. We are both working from home. Always together. always. Sounds romantic? It's not ;)
Ok and the big kicker is Chris' health.
Some of you might remember me mentioning that Chris had a brain/pituitary tumour? Well he did/does. It will never fully be gone. He has had two surgeries to remove what they could (a craniotomy and one that involves going through his nasal cavities). Pleasant!
He also had radiation last April for five weeks solid.
We just found out that his pituitary is no longer working. Nada, nothing, zip.
Your pituitary gland is responsible for most all of your hormones.
Chris has to go on complete hormone replacement.
He has to wear a medic alert bracelet.
The really bad news is that we most likely won't be able to have any more children.
Gulp. Brace for tears.
There is hope however. We could try different treatments.
But they would all be very costly.
So praying extra super duper hard that we will soon be graced with good news and something to celebrate in our life. (Besides celebrating Sophia, which I do everyday!)
A job that has medical would be ideal. A miracle in that we could still get pregnant (when Chris' is ready of course ;)
So to my family and friends please put on your prayer hats and keep us in your prayers.
I'm feeling a little sad, homesick, lost, confused.
Really feeling the urge to move back home to Vancouver.
I'm not sure if that's my scared self talking.
I want Sophia to be near my parents.
I want to be near my parents.
I want trees and rain.
I want to not be struggling anymore.
I trust in God and I know He will take care of us.
It's in His hands.
I just hope I am listening.
My two peeps on our way to Church.
She is growing like a weed!
(fyi- her hair is not crispy, I just sprayed it down with water to style it)
Saturday, January 9, 2010
oh what fun was had
Hello Jada Mae!
How cute are you??
We had so much fun with you and your mommy!
Sophia still talks about you and lays her babies down and changes them just like Aunt Sandy did with you.
We miss you already and hope you don't grow too much before we see you again!!
Ready to hit the town and go shopping!!
"Hi baby", "Hi Jada" - Sophia would say those words every time she saw her
Sophia was all about holding hands with Jada!
Jada would grab onto her fingers and Sophia would beam with happiness and giggle.
She LOVED Jada so much!!
Sophia taught her younger cousin the joys of peek-a-boo!
Jada got a matching hat just like Sophia's! We tried to get a posed picture of this but somebody was not feeling the vibe to have her picture taken..oh well!!
Quite simply the cutest pic of Jada!!
How much did my heart hurt saying goodbye to Jada and Sandy!
Also, can we just say baby fever happening in me!! I am so ready to have another baby! I was ready to have another baby when Sophia turned one, heck I was ready when Sophia was 6 months...
We just need to work on my husband feeling the same way mmmkay?!
Prayers are always welcome ;)
How cute are you??
We had so much fun with you and your mommy!
Sophia still talks about you and lays her babies down and changes them just like Aunt Sandy did with you.
We miss you already and hope you don't grow too much before we see you again!!
Ready to hit the town and go shopping!!
"Hi baby", "Hi Jada" - Sophia would say those words every time she saw her
Sophia was all about holding hands with Jada!
Jada would grab onto her fingers and Sophia would beam with happiness and giggle.
She LOVED Jada so much!!
Sophia taught her younger cousin the joys of peek-a-boo!
Jada got a matching hat just like Sophia's! We tried to get a posed picture of this but somebody was not feeling the vibe to have her picture taken..oh well!!
Quite simply the cutest pic of Jada!!
How much did my heart hurt saying goodbye to Jada and Sandy!
Also, can we just say baby fever happening in me!! I am so ready to have another baby! I was ready to have another baby when Sophia turned one, heck I was ready when Sophia was 6 months...
We just need to work on my husband feeling the same way mmmkay?!
Prayers are always welcome ;)
Monday, January 4, 2010
jada mae is coming!
Auntie Sandy and cousin Jada Mae are coming for a visit tomorrow!!
That means we pulled out all of Sophia's baby items.
We pulled out the bucket car seat
We pulled out the bumbo
We also set up the playpen with the bassinet and the floor play mat.
Pictures were not taken.
As much as Sophia wanted to play in the bassinet I said no.
Otherwise it would be a broken bassinet and we can't have that!
It will be fun to have a baby in the house again!
Then at the end of the month my sister Gina, Sam and baby Lola will visit!
Yay! Good times ahead!
That means we pulled out all of Sophia's baby items.
We pulled out the bucket car seat
We pulled out the bumbo
We also set up the playpen with the bassinet and the floor play mat.
Pictures were not taken.
As much as Sophia wanted to play in the bassinet I said no.
Otherwise it would be a broken bassinet and we can't have that!
It will be fun to have a baby in the house again!
Then at the end of the month my sister Gina, Sam and baby Lola will visit!
Yay! Good times ahead!
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