The one where I let it all out

A breather

That's what i'm going to take.

I have been feeling overwhelmed lately.

I know I don't normally get into much of my own personal life on this blog.

It's all about my sweet princess.

But i'm going to give you a glimpse of what's going on in our life and perhaps you can understand why I don't blog as much or visit your blogs as much.

First up...

Sophia doesn't nap anymore. ever.

If she did nap it would be late in the afternoon and the girl would not go to bed until LATE.

So I decided no more naps.

Would I rather have my evenings free or 1.5 hours in the afternoon for quiet?

Evenings please. I have shows to watch.

She is totally fine with no nap. Didn't phase her. Me on the other hand? I'm tired.

I miss nap time.

Ok, so that was the easy one to deal with.

The second is that my husband Chris was laid off of work almost 9 months ago.

Totally sucks. He had a good job.

Finding a new job? Near impossible.

He has been doing side jobs (web design etc.) for the meantime.

We have been lucky and that has kept us a float. But it's been tough.

Penny pinching is my least favorite hobby in the world.

I was working part time (20 hours a week) at home while Sophia napped and weekends. Then I left that job and started my own thing working for a local Realtor. December I didn't work for him, but will be starting up again next week (hopefully). The only problem. Sophia doesn't nap anymore. Weekends working to the max here I come.

Really, really, really praying for something solid to come through for Chris. Did I mention it's been very hard? Financially and relationship wise. We are both working from home. Always together. always. Sounds romantic? It's not ;)

Ok and the big kicker is Chris' health.

Some of you might remember me mentioning that Chris had a brain/pituitary tumour? Well he did/does. It will never fully be gone. He has had two surgeries to remove what they could (a craniotomy and one that involves going through his nasal cavities). Pleasant!

He also had radiation last April for five weeks solid.

We just found out that his pituitary is no longer working. Nada, nothing, zip.

Your pituitary gland is responsible for most all of your hormones.

Chris has to go on complete hormone replacement.

He has to wear a medic alert bracelet.

The really bad news is that we most likely won't be able to have any more children.

Gulp. Brace for tears.

There is hope however. We could try different treatments.

But they would all be very costly.

So praying extra super duper hard that we will soon be graced with good news and something to celebrate in our life. (Besides celebrating Sophia, which I do everyday!)

A job that has medical would be ideal. A miracle in that we could still get pregnant (when Chris' is ready of course ;)

So to my family and friends please put on your prayer hats and keep us in your prayers.

I'm feeling a little sad, homesick, lost, confused.

Really feeling the urge to move back home to Vancouver.

I'm not sure if that's my scared self talking.

I want Sophia to be near my parents.

I want to be near my parents.

I want trees and rain.

I want to not be struggling anymore.

I trust in God and I know He will take care of us.

It's in His hands.

I just hope I am listening.








My two peeps on our way to Church.

She is growing like a weed!

(fyi- her hair is not crispy, I just sprayed it down with water to style it)