Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Confession

I totally blew my vegan diet so bad yesterday! It all started by me not eating breakfast. Sophia has taken to sleeping in which is amazing and awesome and fantastic and wonderful. We had our second swim lesson yesterday. I drove in with my neighbor Jeannie and her lil guy Alex. Sophia slept in until 8:45 and so did I. We had to leave by 9:45. I had to get her fed, dressed etc etc. I had to pack our bag of pool essentials. By the time I had finished I looked at the clock and thought hmm no time for breakfast. I will survive. We have our lesson. Sophia has a blast. We stay for the free swim after class with our friends. Tummy starting to get mad at me. We dry and dress our babies then dry and dress ourselves. My tummy is getting angry. We finally head home and Jeannie says she is going to stop at McDonald's for some lunch. She apologizes for tempting me. I say that's ok. I am an adult and can make my own decisions. I decide I neeed french fries and a diet coke. My two huge addictions/obsessions. It tastes soo good going down. Salty and hot and then the cool fizz of my favorite beverage. No guilt. I get home and the guilt starts to creep in. I decide today will be my cheat day and will start afresh tomorrow. I need to go grocery shopping so really I had no choice in eating those fries. I like to tell myself these lies. Dinner rolls around. Hmmm what to eat. I think maybe I will get take out Vietnamese food and choose the healthiest option. I decide on rice and a veggie salad roll. I call to place my order, they are closed on Mondays. Weird. Then I throw all caution to the wind and order in Chinese food. I swear I have been craving Chinese food like all the time. It tasted soo good. I love me some chicken chowmein, beef and broccoli and good ol sweet and sour chicken. Being vegan for a week seemed to make meat tastes so much better than usual. I thought it was supposed to have the opposite effect. So now you know. When I cheat I go all out. Yet another issue I have and why losing weight seems impossible. Maybe I can get hypnosis or therapy.

The guilt was a bit too much so I distracted myself with craftiness. You all know what happens next. I burn my fingers. It is my punishment for being so weak.

Anywho it's a new day and I am going to the grocery store as soon as miss Sophia wakes from her nap. Veggies and tofu here I come! Can you tell I'm excited.

4 comments:

Heather said...

Way to start over! Good for you.

amanda said...

you are soo much stronger than i am. i truly couldn't even begin to think about going vegan for a day, let alone a week!!

more power to you sister!!

Jen said...

Don't be too hard on yourself. You are trying and it sounds like you have done well up until the one bad day. One bad day isn't going to do too much damage in the grand scheme of things.

Oh how I love McDonald's fries and a diet coke. We just got Chinese the other night and it had been a long time since we last ate it, so it tasted sooooo good. I think anything tastes better if you haven't had it in awhile.

Christy said...

I have been a vegetarian about 5 years. It takes a while, but you will stop craving meat. My little boy has food allergies, and since I am nursing him, I am not allowed to eat dairy or eggs. So, for now, I am a vegan. But, I have a sneaking suspicion that once he is weaned, I am going to be chugging milkshakes and eating cheese clazones very night.